Stupid Ass Loans

well if u caught my post that was up for like 10 mins while i was being retarded then im a little embarassed..

well i found out how much im getting in loans for next year and i thought it was for each semester and of course it was too good to be true and it is for the whole year.. i was ready to quit my job and everything..

so im getting 4500.. thats right.. for the entire year.. how the hell am i suppose to get through school on that? my tuition for the fall semester alone is 3000! shit.. and i refuse to take less hours.. i cant graduate within this decade taking 12 hours a semster.. im sorry.. it wont happen.. i havent even taking my english classes yet! i hate my degree plan.. ugh it just makes me soo mad i was going to cry earlier.. but my mom said that she is going to talk to my dad about getting the parent loan also.. which would add another 4000.. so then i would have money for rent too.. hopefully they will do that b/c im like super stressed out over how im going to pay for all of this..

i also emailed dr. smith about getting more scholarship money.. ugh! that whole thing pisses me off too.. im not even going to get into that b/c i will be just so mad

i hate money

im so broke ass

::sigh::

im hungry.. didnt get to eat my lunch today

i hate trains..

hung out with the uncles last night always fun to hang out with them

i need another hug

blah

i just want to go home and talk to my mom about what we are going to do..