STRESSED OUT!

i definetly want to cry right now... seriously..

today was so stressful to me and i didnt even have class!!! just orch and my lesson..

i started planning out when im going to gradute/student teach and i heard some things that really made me mad.. i need to go get advised ASAP

then i was practicing and i wish i just had a recorder so i can hear myself b/c i feel like my sound is just terrible and i need to know if it is just in my head

then orchestra... OMG omg i dont want to feel like im carriying my section anymore.. but i did have some good ideas come to me while practing.. so we will see if they help tomorrow

then i had a bad lesson.. ugh

i just cant play the way i want to.. but i dont know

blah now i hve to go take my geography test.. wish me luck